Mind session
But really, it wasn't for the looks, was it?
No, I guess it wasn't, I guess it wasn't too much for that, no. I just wish I could be with her again you know. Even my dreams keep coming back to her. It's depressing, all of this.
All of what?
I don't know. I guess all the mixed feelings and thoughts my mind has built in itself. Naturally, I don't think about her on free will. But some times my mind just switches back to her for that one instance, yet to switch off of her the next. Why is this still happening? Do I still have anything left with her? Wasn't I finished with all the disaster?
It's quite peculiar, isn't it?
Rather is; I thought all this ridiculous business was done. Why can't I ever forget these people completely? It's like 2% or 3% of me is still attached to them.These emotions, they are all so pointless. I have to get over it; I'm never going to be with these people again. I shouldn't feel attached to them. And yet I do and it's starting to be a little bothersome. I seldom think about them, and yet I do think. I can't help it, I'm human. Would it not be easier to be an insect and have no space in that tiny brain span of mine to remember individuals and experience such a range of emotions?
But insects do not know what it is to truly feel. They know nothing, compared to us.
I'd rather not know some times. I'd rather be an unintelligent life form than one who feels too much for her own good.
Is there no way back? Surely there must be something?
A plan, in other words? But that's downright atrocious! No way, I'm not coming back to them!Just because they are in my mind, doesn't mean that they should be there.
But you suffer, you see. You feel lonely and defeated. You are not confident enough to do what you feel is right in your life. If this goes on, you will always be left alone to suffer, you'll never get anywhere!
But it wasn't my fault! It's not fair! I certainly didn't didn't do anything wrong to them! I always did well. How could they? Why would they do this to me?
Maybe you never showed them how much you care.
I did! Couldn't they figure it out?! Is this world so full of ignorant idiots? The whole planet must be messed up then, full of rubbish!
Does it truly bother you so?
Of course! Nothing is right. Where is the justice anywhere? How do people get what they want, while I feel like I'm piled with dirt because I'm always left out?
This journey is yet to be discovered; don't get ahead of yourself.
Fuck you stupid hypocrites! You can all just be happy with your little friends. What the hell do I care? Forget this.
No, I guess it wasn't, I guess it wasn't too much for that, no. I just wish I could be with her again you know. Even my dreams keep coming back to her. It's depressing, all of this.
All of what?
I don't know. I guess all the mixed feelings and thoughts my mind has built in itself. Naturally, I don't think about her on free will. But some times my mind just switches back to her for that one instance, yet to switch off of her the next. Why is this still happening? Do I still have anything left with her? Wasn't I finished with all the disaster?
It's quite peculiar, isn't it?
Rather is; I thought all this ridiculous business was done. Why can't I ever forget these people completely? It's like 2% or 3% of me is still attached to them.These emotions, they are all so pointless. I have to get over it; I'm never going to be with these people again. I shouldn't feel attached to them. And yet I do and it's starting to be a little bothersome. I seldom think about them, and yet I do think. I can't help it, I'm human. Would it not be easier to be an insect and have no space in that tiny brain span of mine to remember individuals and experience such a range of emotions?
But insects do not know what it is to truly feel. They know nothing, compared to us.
I'd rather not know some times. I'd rather be an unintelligent life form than one who feels too much for her own good.
Is there no way back? Surely there must be something?
A plan, in other words? But that's downright atrocious! No way, I'm not coming back to them!Just because they are in my mind, doesn't mean that they should be there.
But you suffer, you see. You feel lonely and defeated. You are not confident enough to do what you feel is right in your life. If this goes on, you will always be left alone to suffer, you'll never get anywhere!
But it wasn't my fault! It's not fair! I certainly didn't didn't do anything wrong to them! I always did well. How could they? Why would they do this to me?
Maybe you never showed them how much you care.
I did! Couldn't they figure it out?! Is this world so full of ignorant idiots? The whole planet must be messed up then, full of rubbish!
Does it truly bother you so?
Of course! Nothing is right. Where is the justice anywhere? How do people get what they want, while I feel like I'm piled with dirt because I'm always left out?
This journey is yet to be discovered; don't get ahead of yourself.
Fuck you stupid hypocrites! You can all just be happy with your little friends. What the hell do I care? Forget this.
